Hello, Tina. I'm Jennifer, the current author of the Coping With Depression Blog. First of all, I am so sorry about your daughter. I know the pain you're in is beyond what most of us can imagine. My heart aches for you. If you haven't seen a therapist, that is my first suggestion. I've dealt with loss and trauma in my life, and attending therapy has truly made a huge difference for me. Also, I want to remind you that your reason for living is you. You are worthy. You are of value. I know there is darkness now, but I promise you there can be light again. Please reach out. Speak with your healthcare provider about what you're feeling. Don't give up.