Hello, Bakeractevasion. I'm Jennifer, the current co-author of the Coping With Depression blog. I'm glad you reached out here. I want you to know that you have worth. You yourself are of great value. I am sorry that you are experiencing so much pain. I encourage you to reach out to a local support group. Look into finding a therapist with whom you click. Sometimes it takes a while. Don't give up. You are not alone. There is help available.