Hello Booker,
Thank you for reaching out, and I am sorry to hear that you are in so much pain. For intervention, connection and support, please see HealthyPlace's list of resources and hotlines to contact: https://www.healthyplace.com/other-info/resources/mental-health-hotline-numbers-and-refer…. I know it can be difficult, but please seek help.
Mary-Elizabeth Schurrer
HealthyPlace Comment Moderator