I met gf and we hit it off great. I am not perfect and we did mutual chemicals but first time I experienced falling in love meaning kind of a two fold deal. Love for what she gave me which shot my dopamine into orbit. Always said I had oxytocin and cotton I'my love with ya. Well that stopped but the chem changed to another type. I always provided she seem to stay depressed. I wanted her to be well ! Communicaton was hard not just cause of that but didn't realize bipolar M/D was and she like to cut she said it numbed her pain. Sometimes she ok but entertaining her and I coddled her much. I told her she could be herself when she came to my place n fam. Later on I was hurt when I realized she wanted to go looking for outer social things that I never thought she would try but only knew because my immediate family was sick . 2 brothers passed away. Then when my dad got unwell . I overwhelmed by loss of brother, dad, other things. She started coming in and I didn't she was texting another man . I didn't understand her update, more distant, couldn't rest, and gave me a hard time . Later she left as going to work. She didn't like our lifestyle anymore !? I cried for weeks, Point of breaking anyways cause I missed my passed away bros,. then I was caring for Dad. I should have got more support but I don't think I got much in these situations. I was always her comforter, moral support now I think about it. She took Prozac 14 then quit cold turkey then worked 23/4:years but partial contributer but less communication. I wish I knew ghosting was this bad, bipolar is very real. Only wish I knew what to do. Miss n love her n ppl I converse with don't get it like I do know. Was made out the bad guy but loved n didn't understand til now but most I did cause read on it . Most ppl hear sound just like me.