Omg I feel exactly like this. It was like I was reading my own words right off the page. Do I suffer with anxiety??? Is that what this is??? I always feel scared to make decisions, as they usually go wrong for me no matter what I decide. I hate answering the phone, as I sometimes forget what I'm talking about , then I start to stutter and sound like an idiot. Everyone else around me is normal, making grown up decisions, amazing jobs, family, beautiful house, very successful. I have the opposite to any of that, nervous, scared, unlucky, failure, stupid. I feel like a pathetic child who needs her hand holding through life. Not at all the person I wanted to be.